Today is a day..
Yesterday was what?
Where am I?
Who am I?
Is there a place for me?
Is there a place for me
What does that look you give me mean?
Today the burdens of life weigh heavy and I
feel buried underneath them.
Buried alive by life..I am buried alive by life.
Where is a light, I need a light to follow...
Darkness surrounds me and I feel as though I
could suffocate with the darkness.
I am falling, falling into the dark
the darkness if encompassing me.
I need to reach out, reach out to the light I can find
Is there a light for me or just another lie..
Who knows who can tell...

Thoughts in the dead of Night

Sometimes I wake in the night,
I wonder where am I in the scheme of things.
Am I a small wheel in a larger one
or am I just a whisper in the dark,
something that is sometimes out of sight.
But with the coming of dawn, I see my family,
they stretch out right in front of me.
Life twists and turns, paths are followed,
choices are made, children grow and are gone.
I am changing every day but is it in the right way?
My heart is tender that is sure,
feeling get hurt but soon recover.
My husband is there larger than life,
putting up with me as his wife.
Sometimes I wonder how he can,
I know I am hard on him, he loves me still.
His sweet arm, draws me near in its embrace
telling me that I have a place.
Day follows night and we go on together
forever in times good and bad.
New spirits come and enter our fold
life is a circle that will not end.
it's a comfort as I ponder the dawn,
all is well and in it's space.
I can go and find my place, because you are
behind me lighting my way this day.

Fred & kids at Wheeler Farm

Where am I going?

Where am I going?
I am not sure
Who will I follow?
A hand in the darkness,
A voice in the night,
A shadow before me,
Where is the light?
Among golden pages,
A light I will find,
Spirits will touch me,
Light from divine,
God is beside me,
But he, I must call,
Kneeling in darkness,
He hears my call,
I am his child,
Me, he won't fail.
Angels surround me,
Light fills my soul,
Color surrounds me,
My souls in delight.
Darkness defeated,
Light wins the day,
Goodness and mercy,
Are granted this day.
I heed his call,
Peace is my destiny,
Joy my reward,
I'll follow his footsteps,
I'll watch from afar.
Images flashing,
Then all is still.
Clasping the book,
I'm surrounded by truth.
God is my guardian,
My truth and my sword,
Light piercing the darkness.
Truth defeats lies,
I'm going home,
One page at a time,
I'm going home, home,
One page at a time.

Where to go from here

Well, today I am wondering where to go from here. I wanted to open my own business but I need you guessed it CAPITAL..and you guessed it, I don't have any. Not a farthing mum..so...I guess it is back to the old drawing board, haha..I am going to work on art and see where it get's me. If nothing else I will enjoy myself immensely.

It has been so fun to have Anson and Paris here. They have been so awesome. Jessica has some wonderful children and they are really special. For those of you who didn't get to meet them, you've really missed out. All the grandchildren and their mom's came over yesterday (that live here anyway!) We tried to watch a new baby chick hatch out but the two mother's got agitated and stepped on him. He had permanent eye damage but struggled to live until sometime in the night. We will probably have a memorial service for him. The kids will be so disappointed that he didn't live. But death is a part of life. Here are some highlights of our adventures.

I had an awesome experience yesterday, actually two. I am going to a business developement class offered by Snow College Richfield. The guy in charge knows someone who does hypotherapy training and comes up from California, Yeah for me. Then I called a place in the Salt Lake area that works with Mustangs and children called Windriver and they are super excited about my idea of starting a similar place here in the Sevier Valley. The woman I spoke to is 62 and the owner of the facility is 69 and they are going strong so I am just a baby in comparison. Yeah to MOM. I was invited to participate in their September Clinic. I also volunteered to help with their Graphic Art needs. So that will be really COOL.

This is Fred with Chase, our newest grandson.
He belongs to Amy and Damon Benjamin in Nampa, ID.

We arrived home from Salt Lake last night about 11 pm. It is good to be home. Jessica invited us and the kids to dinner at the Market Street Grill where she is a server trainer. It was great food and a fun atmosphere. How do people afford to go there on a regular basis? Fred, Elaura and I left on Saturday and picked up Paris and Anson on Sunday morning about 9:30 am. We stopped and saw Joe, Angie and Ellen. Seeing Amy was a bonus. We had seen Rob and crew on our way up to deliver the kids on Tuesday. Tim and Nellie and Allie, we weren't able to get together with yet. We ended up spending the majority of our time on Sunday and Monday at Liberty Park. It is a great place to hang out. The water features are wonderful and I spent a lot of time drawing kids and working on my upcoming art projects. Anson and Paris were so delightful. Jessica treated us to dinner at the Market Street Grill last night. It was really nice, especially since we are celebrating our 12th wedding anniversary on the 9th of Aug. CONGRATS to us. It's been an uphill climb all the way. Thanks Fred for sticking with me like fly paper with lots of tornado like winds. I love you.

I am planning on writing childrens stories featuring, who else, GRandKIDS of course. I will also do my own illustrations. Fred is sporting an awesome beard as inspiration for older handsome scripture heroes. I am entering the Ensign contest this year and also the Springville Competition which are both in October. GOOD LUCK TO ME.

This picture was from some time ago when we were all a lot younger.
Joe you do look your very best.

This is Buddy! My first horse ever. He has really changed and will be ridden this year. I will get a picture of him as he looks today.