The Blue Butterdragon

Spring, Spring, Spring!

2010-03-17T17:55:00.000-07:00

I just spent three miserable days sick with a bug. Yuck. I am finally better and spent time outside with Bella, my horse. Yes it is after twilight. But granddaughters named her so what can I say. Her long name Bella Diamond. Really crazy but that is a four year old for you.
Anyway I spent time in the sun. It was wonderful especially after being in bed. I can't wait to plant something green. I have so many seeds I want to use this year. We will see. It is nice to be home. I spend the week in Spring City then come home on the weekends if I have gas money or the weather isn't bad or or or.. ANy way. No one will see this so it doesn't matter but I had fun writing it.

A renewal of me

2010-01-31T10:42:00.000-08:00

I feel like a kid again. I can't begin to tell you how much fun I am having at school. They had an 80's dance of Fri and I wanted to go. I love dancing. But it didn't work out. My art classes are spectacular. I will post pictures of my art work when I get around to it. This has been really great and of course Fred is very supportive and a rock.

school and a renewal of life

2010-01-09T05:29:00.000-08:00

School has been a renewal of life for me. I raised my children at a young age. Now is my time to shine. I look forward to the days with a smile. This week attending my Spanish, 3-, Drawing 1 and printmaking were a dream. I had so much fun. It was especially nice to have the undivided attention of my husband in the car for one hour to and from school. Yeah for me.

Belief

2009-03-12T08:30:00.000-07:00

Sometimes the hardest thing is belief in oneself. Why is it that the things we love to do, are the things we are afraid to accomplish. Maybe, I'm not good enough. What I do isn't good enough. Maybe others won't like what I have done? The funny thing is, no one knows and no one cares what I think sometimes. That is the kicker. People are so busy with their lives that they don't know what other people think of feel. Isn't that funny. I think so.

Up before the sun

2009-03-06T05:23:00.000-08:00

I have been getting up before the sun for a while now. It has been interesting the things I get done before that ball of fire arrives. I have written lots of stories an poems of course no one reads them but oh ho, I have a good time. That is all that matter's I guess. I still haven't figured out how a man's mind works. If anyone read my blog then maybe they could let me know what they think but it will remain the mysterious mystery of all time. At least to me anyway. Marci

2009-03-02T07:35:00.000-08:00

Abd Er-Rahman III of Spain:

I have now reigned about 50 years in victory or peace, beloved by my subjects, dreaded by my enemies, and respected by my allies. Riches and honors, power and pleasure, have waited on my call, nor does any earthly blessing appear to have been wanting to my felicity. In this situation, I have diligently numbered the days of pure and genuine happiness which have fallen to my lot. They amount to fourteen. (960 C.E.)

Albert Camus:

You will never be happy if you continue to search for what happiness consists of. You will never live if you are looking for the meaning of life.

2009-03-02T07:22:00.000-08:00

Hey, I have discovered classmates.com. It has been a fun discovery for me. I have got onto a writing group, arts and crafts, geneology, and have discovered friends I never knew I had when I got onto my class website. It has been an awesome inspiring time for me and for Fred even. We met a guy that was from his graduating class and he came over and Fred and he reminiced even though he was a football player and Fred was a quiet shy, kind of a guy. It was very fun and enllightening time for me as I watched Fred light up. He has the cutest dimples you know. IT was fun.

My wings are spread and I will fly

2009-02-14T04:26:00.000-08:00

Well, I am 51 and it is time for me to fly. But now that I am old enough to fly, I want to change my name. Marci is my legal name but, strange person that I am, I want to be known (at least in artistic circles (written and arty) as Marcella Isabella. For some people (family) this will be very strange. But for me it is a rising of the old me into a new and better me. Leaving behind the old labels, either put on by others, life or whatever. I am meeting new people this year who are changing my life. I freely and gratefully acknowledge the hand of God in my life at this time. I thank him for his patience with me, a daughter who is a trial a lot of times to any one who knows her and loves her. But mostly to myself. I love you and am grateful I am you. You are beautiful, strong, courageous, a fighter and a lover. A fighter for those who are the underdog and a lover of all that is good, praiseworthy and of good report. I am one of those. Thanks Marci and goodbye Hello Marcella it is your time to fly.

Reach out your hand

2008-12-04T02:49:00.000-08:00

Today builds tomorrow,
a trail of footsteps behind.
I ponder and listen,
hearing his voice in the dark,
Leading me forward over boulders and thorns.
The path isn't easy,
the way not sure,
but the voice never waivers I strain to hear.
Come, it says, come follow my lead,
I'll catch you when you skin your knee,
I'll pick you up when you fall out of that tree.
Live, live don't look back,
Each day's a new page
together we will write,
you need to live.
You have that right...
you have the right.
The path is not easy
the way obscured.
A light in the darkness
is before you, if you keep me in mind.
Keep my image before you my dear,
my own as you stumble along.
I'll never fail you,
I'll never leave.
My eyes, they are tender,
my hands pierced for your blood,
feet torn, I paid the price
to hold you in my arms.
So take my scarred hand in yours,
I'll walk with you in this strange land.
Give me burdens that weigh you down,
Hand me the pain, that tears you in two,
let me help..let me help you.
I love you my dearest,
I love you my girl.
You can shut the door on me,
but I'm waiting just out of sight,,
for your beckoning gesture oh however slight.
I'll never leave...I'll never leave.
Together we'll slay the dragons ahead,
is it the burden of death?
We will make it light.
Reach out your hand, my dear
reach out your hand.
I'll walk before you with the light.

s

2008-11-29T00:04:00.000-08:00

I have an idea for a book. Right now I am entitling it walking out of the darkness into the light. IT is going to be interesting. I woke up with it in my head and am putting it to paper. Let see how it goes... Happy holidays everyone. This is my favorite time of year. All my children were born from November to Jan. with the exception of Jessica who was born about a month after her dad's birthday. She was a daddy's girl that was for sure. LOVE To ALL MOM

vacation

2008-11-11T06:41:00.000-08:00

Hey,
We just got back from going to Boise. It was a fun trip. But the most fun I had was when we got back. I spent a day with Joe, Angie, Tim, Nellie and their girls. Then I went to church in JEANS, Yikes but I wanted to hear Joe talk. His talk was great. Good job Joe. Tim spent tons of TIME putting in a stereo for me in my car. THANKS SO MUCH TIM. Nellie thanks, I hope you didn't mind too much lending him to me. You both will never know how much it meant to me. Then I got lost going to Spanish Fork. You say YOUR KIDDING but no I'm not. Any way thanks to Rob for finding me and I enjoyed my visit with him and his family. They are great too. It was nice to see the house. I suffer greatly from being an empty nester. Since Joe, Tim and Rob are gone, I miss them more than they can know. But they need to have their own lives and that is how it should be.. I just struggle with it. Poor me..okay enough of that. It was a great week thanks guys. The baby shower for Nellie was really fun.

Birthday

2008-10-21T06:52:00.000-07:00

It is a beautiful day in my neighborhood. Junk next door and junk on the floor. Hey more dogs than I want to count. (we are babysitting 5 noisy chihuahua's and it stinks) But hey, someday it will be over. Right?? It could be worse. But I had a nice birthday and now I am 51. Wow that is old. Thanks for all the phone calls and thanks for the gift Joe and Angie and Ellen. Fred did take me out to dinner which was nice. Thanks Fred!

2008-10-06T04:35:00.000-07:00

I cannot begin to tell you what conference has done for me. Hope in Christ is there again.
I almost felt as though the whole conference was just for me. But I know that is how millions of people around the world felt. I wish that Jessica could somehow catch the vision of the gospel again. I hope and pray she may someday come back to it.

It is funny how each of us seem to have a special connection with each of our siblings, and other family members. Thanks for being there and loving me as I am with my many talents, and my many failings. I want to start as a new beginning again to go forward with faith in Christ, feasting on his words. Thank you boys for your strength and courage to go on a mission. It has made you each someone I can learn from, lean on and admire as I learn more from you all. Mama

What is important

2008-09-30T22:32:00.000-07:00

Tell me what is important in life?
Is it the car I drive,
the clothes I wear?
What is the thing I am searching for?
The past is there waiting to be found,
ancestors now long gone.
Their stories live on in the hearts of us all,
Follow them so that you don't drop away.
Examples of strength beyond compare,
They wrote them for us to share
Where are we in the strife of life,
Do we struggle for the daily necessities?
The answer to that is no for sure but
our struggle for identities is hard.
It may not be the same but it is the
death of the soul we fight for.
Will we win or will we lose only
the individual can choose.
What side of the line will you find
yourself on tomorrow?
Only you and God know where you are,
where you are going, doesn't have to be where
they have been let them give you a helping hand.

Lady and the chick

2008-09-30T06:57:00.000-07:00

Today I had a really cool experience. I went to let out all the chickens and only counted 7 chick with the hen instead of 10. So Lady and I went in the hen house to find the rest. I was worried about one in particular as I noticed it was pretty little and seemed to lag behind yesterday. This chick was one that actually incubated out about a week after all the others had been hatched out by the hen.
We found two chicks together trying to find a way to the hen through the slats in the wood and shooed them out. But no little chick. Lady followed her nose from the nest where they had hatched, along the wall over then out the door into the next shed. I heard a bunch of banging and thought it was the goats. Soon I heard barking. I found Lady with her head in a bin turned on its side. She was lunging in and out of the bin like she had found something. You know me, I thought it might be a rodent of the gray and small scary kind, so I approached cautiously.
Low and behold, it was the small chick. A fluffy brown chick, freezing and shivering. Who wasn't trying to run away from a dog so large. Picking up the chick, Lady sniffed it, jumping up and down like she knew something special had been done.
I tried to get close enough to the hen to return the baby. But this hen and Lady have a long history. The hen chases Lady off, who tired of feisty hens gives chase. There is lots of cackling, clucking, a flying hen and a jumping dog just like in the movies. Well, 9 baby chicks scattered every where and eventually I got Lady in the house. The hen calling her chicks took them back to the corn, I guess even for hens, food smooths the ruffled feathers of that female, too. I wonder if they would like chocolate flavored candy corn?
The chick was finally able to teeter like a drunk to it mother and soon there were 20 little legs under this hen. Russet colored feathers spread wide, it just reminds me of the scriptures that talks about how a hen gathers her chicks. I never knew that hens and chicks were so poetic. Unfortunately, they dislike rain and water so when I filled the water bins, the hen ran away scattering quickly. Little brown chick left behind to chirp pathetically as its siblings ran quickly away leaving it behind. Now it is warming in the house in the bathroom on the heating pad in a basket with a towel covering the pad. I hear him screaming for his mother in his loudest cheep-cheep so he must be feeling better and its only been about fifteen minutes. Have a great day!

2008-08-29T18:19:00.000-07:00

Today is a day..
Yesterday was what?
Where am I?
Who am I?
Is there a place for me?
Is there a place for me
What does that look you give me mean?
Today the burdens of life weigh heavy and I
feel buried underneath them.
Buried alive by life..I am buried alive by life.
Where is a light, I need a light to follow...
Darkness surrounds me and I feel as though I
could suffocate with the darkness.
I am falling, falling into the dark
the darkness if encompassing me.
I need to reach out, reach out to the light I can find
Is there a light for me or just another lie..
Who knows who can tell...

2008-08-23T02:51:00.000-07:00

Thoughts in the dead of Night

Sometimes I wake in the night,
I wonder where am I in the scheme of things.
Am I a small wheel in a larger one
or am I just a whisper in the dark,
something that is sometimes out of sight.
But with the coming of dawn, I see my family,
they stretch out right in front of me.
Life twists and turns, paths are followed,
choices are made, children grow and are gone.
I am changing every day but is it in the right way?
My heart is tender that is sure,
feeling get hurt but soon recover.
My husband is there larger than life,
putting up with me as his wife.
Sometimes I wonder how he can,
I know I am hard on him, he loves me still.
His sweet arm, draws me near in its embrace
telling me that I have a place.
Day follows night and we go on together
forever in times good and bad.
New spirits come and enter our fold
life is a circle that will not end.
it's a comfort as I ponder the dawn,
all is well and in it's space.
I can go and find my place, because you are
behind me lighting my way this day.

Fred & kids at Wheeler Farm

2008-08-23T02:47:00.000-07:00

Where am I going?

2008-08-20T06:17:00.001-07:00

Where am I going?
I am not sure
Who will I follow?
A hand in the darkness,
A voice in the night,
A shadow before me,
Where is the light?
Among golden pages,
A light I will find,
Spirits will touch me,
Light from divine,
God is beside me,
But he, I must call,
Kneeling in darkness,
He hears my call,
I am his child,
Me, he won't fail.
Angels surround me,
Light fills my soul,
Color surrounds me,
My souls in delight.
Darkness defeated,
Light wins the day,
Goodness and mercy,
Are granted this day.
I heed his call,
Peace is my destiny,
Joy my reward,
I'll follow his footsteps,
I'll watch from afar.
Images flashing,
Then all is still.
Clasping the book,
I'm surrounded by truth.
God is my guardian,
My truth and my sword,
Light piercing the darkness.
Truth defeats lies,
I'm going home,
One page at a time,
I'm going home, home,
One page at a time.

Where to go from here

2008-08-18T19:15:00.000-07:00

Well, today I am wondering where to go from here. I wanted to open my own business but I need you guessed it CAPITAL..and you guessed it, I don't have any. Not a farthing mum..so...I guess it is back to the old drawing board, haha..I am going to work on art and see where it get's me. If nothing else I will enjoy myself immensely.

2008-08-09T06:02:00.001-07:00

2008-08-09T05:41:00.001-07:00

It has been so fun to have Anson and Paris here. They have been so awesome. Jessica has some wonderful children and they are really special. For those of you who didn't get to meet them, you've really missed out. All the grandchildren and their mom's came over yesterday (that live here anyway!) We tried to watch a new baby chick hatch out but the two mother's got agitated and stepped on him. He had permanent eye damage but struggled to live until sometime in the night. We will probably have a memorial service for him. The kids will be so disappointed that he didn't live. But death is a part of life. Here are some highlights of our adventures.

2008-08-07T02:18:00.000-07:00

I had an awesome experience yesterday, actually two. I am going to a business developement class offered by Snow College Richfield. The guy in charge knows someone who does hypotherapy training and comes up from California, Yeah for me. Then I called a place in the Salt Lake area that works with Mustangs and children called Windriver and they are super excited about my idea of starting a similar place here in the Sevier Valley. The woman I spoke to is 62 and the owner of the facility is 69 and they are going strong so I am just a baby in comparison. Yeah to MOM. I was invited to participate in their September Clinic. I also volunteered to help with their Graphic Art needs. So that will be really COOL.

2008-08-05T06:24:00.000-07:00

This is Fred with Chase, our newest grandson.
He belongs to Amy and Damon Benjamin in Nampa, ID.

2008-08-05T06:09:00.000-07:00

We arrived home from Salt Lake last night about 11 pm. It is good to be home. Jessica invited us and the kids to dinner at the Market Street Grill where she is a server trainer. It was great food and a fun atmosphere. How do people afford to go there on a regular basis? Fred, Elaura and I left on Saturday and picked up Paris and Anson on Sunday morning about 9:30 am. We stopped and saw Joe, Angie and Ellen. Seeing Amy was a bonus. We had seen Rob and crew on our way up to deliver the kids on Tuesday. Tim and Nellie and Allie, we weren't able to get together with yet. We ended up spending the majority of our time on Sunday and Monday at Liberty Park. It is a great place to hang out. The water features are wonderful and I spent a lot of time drawing kids and working on my upcoming art projects. Anson and Paris were so delightful. Jessica treated us to dinner at the Market Street Grill last night. It was really nice, especially since we are celebrating our 12th wedding anniversary on the 9th of Aug. CONGRATS to us. It's been an uphill climb all the way. Thanks Fred for sticking with me like fly paper with lots of tornado like winds. I love you.

I am planning on writing childrens stories featuring, who else, GRandKIDS of course. I will also do my own illustrations. Fred is sporting an awesome beard as inspiration for older handsome scripture heroes. I am entering the Ensign contest this year and also the Springville Competition which are both in October. GOOD LUCK TO ME.

2008-08-05T05:49:00.000-07:00

This picture was from some time ago when we were all a lot younger.
Joe you do look your very best.

2008-08-05T05:45:00.000-07:00

This is Buddy! My first horse ever. He has really changed and will be ridden this year. I will get a picture of him as he looks today.

2008-07-27T06:13:00.000-07:00

Check out these legs! Hot stuff!!!

Here's Rob with two of his nieces.
That was quite some time ago!